Yadda Yadda Yadda

(They say) I'm a little to young to understand
But it's a little to late too hold my hand
You know I never subscribe to yes sir no sir
gonna learn gonna love gonna take my chance
It's a little too late for you to say
That I'm a little too young to feel this way

'cause I just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
Be lost in the feeling standing here
At the door to my life
Now that day has arrived so loud and clear
You'll hear me singing
Do do doo do do do do do do
I'm singing
Do do do do do do do do do

(They say) I'm a little too lost without you here
(They said) that I'm a little too soft and too sincere
'cause I never subscribe to who sir me sir
Gonna stand gonna fall gonna face my fears
It's a little too late for me to wait
'cause your're never to young to feel this way

'cause I just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
Be lost in the feeling standing
Here at the door to my life
Now that day has arrived so loud and clear
You'll hear me singing
Do do doo do do do do do do
I'm singing
Do do do do do do do do do

If I want your help I'll say help me
I'm okay I'm alright won't you hear me loud and clear

'cause I just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
Be lost in the feeling standing here
At the door to my life
Now that day has arrived so loud and clear
You'll hear me singing
Do do doo do do do do do do
I'm singing
Do do do do do do do do do

I'm a little too young to understand
But it's a little too late to hold my hand
I'm a little too lost without you here
That I'm a little too soft and too sincere

Little darlin' don't you see the sun is shining
Just for you, only today
If you hurry you can get a ray on you, come with me, just to play
Like every humming bird and bumblebee
Every sunflower, cloud and every tree
I feel so much a part of this
Nature's got me high and it's beautiful
I'm with this deep eternal universe
From death until rebirth

This corner of the earth is like me in many ways
I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play
On the face of it I'm blessed
When the sunlight comes for free
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me
So inspired of that there's nothing left to do or say
Think I'll dream, 'til the stars shine

The wind it whispers and the clouds don't seem to care
And I know inside, that it's all mine
It's the chorus of the breakin' dawn
The mist that comes before the sun is born
To a hazy afternoon in May
Nature's got me high and it's so beautiful
I'm with this deep eternal universe from death until rebirth

You know that this corner of the earth is like me in many ways
I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play
On the face of it I'm blessed
When the sunlight comes for free
I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me

I like small speakers-I like tall speakers
If they've music-they've wired for sound

Walkin' about with a head full of music
Casette in my pocket and I'm gonna use it-stereo
-out on the street you know-woh oh woh...

Into the car go to work I'm cruisin'
I never think that I'll blow all my fuses
Traffic flows-into the breakfast show-woh oh woh...

Power from the needle to the plastic
A.m.-F.m. I feel so ecstatic now
It's music I've found
And I'm wired for sound

I was small boy who don't like his toys
I could not wait to get wired for sound

I met a girl and she told me she loved me
I said you love me then love means you must like what I like-
My music is dynamite-woh oh woh...

She said-I'm not a girl you put on at a stand by
I am a girl who demands that her love is amplified
Switch in to overdrive-woh oh woh

Power from the needle to the plastic
A.m.-F.m. I feel so ecstatic now
It's music I've found
And I'm wired for sound

Just letting you know what I'm doing in case you haven't been on here for a while and you're super confused. I'm blogging through song while I'm away in Tasmania. So just read the song lyrics and you'll understand something of what is going on in my life.

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town
You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me, Take me to that other place
Teach me, I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me, Take me to that other place
Reach me, I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now

It was a beautiful day

Lights go out and I can't be saved
Tides that I've tried to swim against,
You've put me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I BEG AND PLEAD, singing

Come out of things unsaid
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can't be named
tigers waiting to be tamed, singing

You are

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks, gonna
Come back and take you home
I could not stop what you now know, singing

Come out upon my seas
Cursed missed opportunities
Am I a part of the cure?
Or am I part of the disease?, singing

You are

And nothing else compares
Oh! nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

You are

Home, home, where I wanted to GO
Home, home, where I wanted to GO
Home, home, where I wanted to GO
Home, home, where I wanted to GO

Well i woke up this morning,
a rainbow filled the sky
Well I woke up this morning,
a rainbow filled the sky
Well that was God tellin' me,
Everything's gonna be alright

Well so long, good friends,
When will we meet again?
I said so long good friends,
When will we meet again?
Well i don't know, i don't know,
But I guess I'll see you then...

Well I'm gonna pack my old guitar,
Move on down the road,
I'm gonna pack my old guitar,
and move on down the road (where you gonna go?)
Where I'll go, I don't know,
But I guess I's gots to go

When I woke up this morning,
a rainbow filled the sky
When I woke up this morning,
a rainbow filled the sky,
Well that was God tellin me,
Everything...Everything is gonna be alright....

By the way, I've decided to blog through song for the next 3 or so weeks (see previous post). While i'm away I'm just going to post song lyrics that reflect how things are going for me. So read into that what you will. I wanted to try something new, and I think it will be less time consuming coz I'll have little access to the net while i'm away. Love to you all!

I can't understand it
The search for an answer is meant with a darker name
And we've been handed these moments forever
But i'm reassured there's another way

You don't have to close your eyes
There is room for love again
Ease the pain to realize all that love can be
Forced apart by diamonds and
Take a step and take my hand
And don't let it go
Never let go

Broken, once connected
We were so strong and so blessed in a simple way
So don't let me go it alone

Turn your head up to the sky
Nothing down below but me
Face the truth to relize all that we could be
Torn apart by rage and fear
Hold on to what brought you here and
Don't let it go
Never let go

Turn your head up to the sky
Nothing down below
Don't let go

Well just letting you know that I'll be leaving to go on holidays on Tuesday night. I'll be gone for three weeks, so expect little blogging action from me, although please feel free to take over my blog while I'm away. I'll have to have you all 'taken care of' after I get back of course, but you'll have three glorious weeks, so enjoy them while they last.

I'll be off to Tassie from June 21 til July 11. I'm going primarily for Claire and Brenton's wedding at which I'll be singing at playing piano (as of this week), so I'm really excited about that! And I'll be taking the opportunity to hang out with all my Tassie friends for a few weeks. Can't wait to see you all! And I'll miss all you non-Tassie people when I'm there.

I have been thinking a bit about music lately (I know, huge shock...), and thinking what makes me enjoy music and what stops me enjoying music. I can't enjoy a song with lyrics I hate. Lyrics don't laways have to be deep and meaningful, I like fun songs, but I can't enjoy a song with just stupid lyrics that annoy me. Aka Gwen Steffani. What on earth is up with the lyrics to her latest song? Oh please. And there are people like Tammin (ex home & away chicky) who have nice cliched songs which don't say anything particularly profound. Then there are people like Paul Dempsey (something for kate) who write really obscure lyrics that you actually need to think about to understand. I'm a massive something for kate fan, but I can see that they don't appeal to the masses (unfortunately). People don't like to think too much. It seems all the popular music doesn't make you think. Anything that does, requires effort, and not everyone bothers. I think people miss out on some of the best music ever written because they don't want to think or be challenged. Ingrid and I were talking the other day about lyrics, and we thought we needed to find a happy medium, somewhere between Tammin and Paul.


Some of my fav artists:
George, Missy Higgins, Pete Murray, Switchfoot, Something For Kate, Josh Groban, Evermore, Coldplay, Dashboard Confessional, John Mayer, Incubus, Kutless, Sons Of Korah.
(There are so many others, but that's a short list)

It's my mum's birthday today. I adore my mum. I'd just like to take this opportunity to express my appreciation for my mum. She is an incredible woman. She is strong, and I admire her dedication to me, and to our family in general. I have learnt so much from her, and I have no idea how I would have gotten through life without her. She is such a strong woman of God, and she inspires me to be the same. She has taught me much through instruction, and through example. She is an amazing woman who loves me so much. I appreciate you more than I can say mum! I couldn't imagine having a more incredible mother.

Do you ever feel really fragile and anything can make you cry? I cried in a destiny's child film clip last weekend. That's so depressing. It was their new song. I don't even like Destiny's child.

How much does Gwen Steffani's music suck? Old 'no doubt' are awesome, Gwen Stefanni is terrible.

Last night (open mic night) went ok. I had a lot of fun, but it was probably the most tragic performance of our short lived career. I really enjoyed the night, and loved most of our performance of 'the special two'. But I think it was most definately the worst performance we have ever done. Even though it was not the least enjoyable. Strange feeling. I love performing.

I am loving the band 'sugarcult' at the moment. I want to recommend them!

I'm so tired. I shouldn't blog (or communicate in general) when I'm this sleep deprived.

Matty left to go back to Sydney today. It was awesome to see you again Matty! Had a great time hanging out!

I feel like going out and doing lots of fun stuff. I feel restless.

Well I've just come back from a few days down at Morwell in Eastern Victoria (Gippsland). Had a fantastic time catching up with a whole bunch of friends, and met a couple of new ones. 5 people came down from Sydney for the long weekend, so it was fully awesome to see them all again and hang out. I also got to see 3 of my friends who live down in Morwell. I missed you guys so much! It was so good to see you. We went for a couple of walks, played some poker, played some xbox (I hate Halo.), saw a movie and just chatted. Great weekend of chilling out with old friends. I miss them already... Although Matty is still here. Yay! He goes home tomorrow arvo. Yay that he is still here by the way, not yay that he goes home tomorrow. Just needed to clarify so I don't get in trouble!

I saw Mr & Mrs Smith last night. Great movie! I defiatenly recommend it! I won't spoil it for all you people who haven't seen it, but it's worth a watch!

Another open mic night tonight for my little acoustic duo. Last one for at least a month, coz Ingi and I are both away at different times (both in Tassie). Here are the details:

9:30pm Tonight (Monday)
Wesley Anne
250 High St
Northcote

Might see some of you there!

Well as you can tell by the latest title I love Evermore. Ok, so perhaps you can't, but I do. Love Evermore that is. I went with Matty (who is visiting down here yay!) to see Evermore last night at the Hi Fi in Melbourne. I managed to win a bidding war on the nova (radio station) website and got a double pass to see Evermore last night.

Here is the exciting bit, I was in the very front row!!!!

The first support act were 'the panda band'. They were ok. The second support act were 'the vasco era'. They were absolutely fantastic!!!! I fully recommend going to see them live if you can. The guitarist is incredible! The third support act (yes there were a lot of support acts) were 'the red sun band'. They were ok, but kinda boring. Then Evermore finally got on stage and they were so amazing! They were spot on live! Some bands are only good because they are recorded and manipulated, but these guys were great!

They played for about an hour and a quarter, not long enough in my opinion, but I loved what they did. They did most of their current album 'dreams' (which I have), and 3 older songs I hadn't heard before. I loved it! I'd love to get a hold of their old EP, it was fantastic! I really like the music they write, I think it's really interesting. My fav song by them is called 'know it's true', which they played. I was very excited about that! It was a great crowd atmostphere. You could tell who really liked them and who just knew their singles. It was hilarious. I sang along to everything (except the 3 songs I didn't know)! Anyone who knows me won't be surprised that I sang to everything. I don't think I'd talk if it was socially acceptable. I'd sing everything!

Anyway, Dann was on drums (he's 16 and an incredible dummer and back up singer!), Peter is on keys (he's 18 and on vocals occasionally) and Jon is on guitar and vocals (He's 20 and just so talented. And very very hot!). They're brothers and people keep comparing them to Hanson, even though the only similarity is that they are brothers. Soooo different otherwise! You guys missed a great night. I am still on a high from the night. I just get the biggest high from live music! *sigh* I love it. I want to go to more concerts. I'm not sure what else to tell you. It was just an incredible night. They are very talented boys!

In summary: I LOVE EVERMORE!!!!

Do you ever just get days when your brain ceases to function? Like you have all these thoughts and feelings floating around, but none of them ever solidify so you can't tell what you're thinking? You just know there is lots of stuff there? It's all so hazy. I'm having a hazy brain day.

Well I just got back from another open mic night. How many is that now? I think we've done about 5 now? I think that was our 5th time. I really enjoy public performance. I'm not sure what is it. I just have such a passion for music and singing and I think I love sharing that with others. Well, that's part of it anyway. Hardly anyone was there tonight, but we did have a good time. The people who were there were very supportive. We got to play 6 songs (double what we normally play) because there weren't many acts there, so that was a positive for us! I get such a buzz from performing!

I started doing some work today which is nice. I'm looking after a foster child for the next 2 weeks. I pick her up from school and then just hang out with her until her foster mum gets home. I'm also starting some exam supervision tomorrow at dad's school. Nice way to get some extra pocket money.

Only 15 days til I go to Tassie! I can't wait!

Only 3 days til Matty gets to my place! Yay!

Only 3 days til I go and see Evermore! WOOT!!!!

Only a few minutes til I go to bed and get some sleep! DOUBLE YAY AND WOOT!

Naomi & I


My new Bed!!!!!

For those of you who want to come see us, Sidekick (the acoustic duo I'm in with Ingi) are performing at an open mic night this Monday night. (insert gameshow host voice) And the details are:

9:30pm
Wesley Anne
250 High St
Northcote

Feel free to bring a giant crowd! The more people who come, the bigger our heads get!

I was chatting to Ingrid today while we were jamming. But before I get into that she has a blog now!!! How very exciting!!! Ingi is the other half of my acoustic duo. Here is her blog! Check it out! I feature in her first blog! OH YEAH!

Ingi's Blog

Anyway, back to what Ingi and I were talking about today. It seems that blogging is quite a different form of communication. I mean, when I'm with my friends, I would never talk like this, I'm not going to sit down with my friends and go on some monologue rant. The more I think about it, the more I think this is a facinating method of communication. This way people get to see what my inner monologue might look like at times. I would never talk this way. Obviously this blog is censored and I don't just say everthing that's on my mind (that's what my journal is for). But I do think it's a different method to let people know what I'm thinking without having to make them sit and listen to me speak my inner monologue.

I seriously lack energy. It's a problem. I'm so impressed that my last blog recieved so much attention. It takes emotionally energy to write something on a deeper level. I want to commend everyone who has taken the time and energy to discuss what seems to be a very intense subject. I can sometimes have a lack of desire to use the energy required to engage with deeper material. Deep things require energy, even though it is emotional energy I think it can be increidbly draining. I feel so drained from study sometimes, and all you do is sit down and read or listen or discuss, but taking that emotional energy can leave you tired and drained. One of my friends thinks this is why shopping can be so exhausting. All the decision making takes it out of you.

I noticed that my brother posted about this in his blog thing, but I'd like to explore this also. The weather definately affects my mood and my energy levels. I know that some people suffer from seasonal depression and I think I suffer from it in a mild form. When the sun is out I have more energy and I feel more motivated to do anything. But when it is overcast and cold I feel a lack of desire to do practically anything. I hate it. I don't want my feelings to dictate my behaviour, but it can be quite difficult to get motivated when your feelings just aren't pulling you in that direction.

I was thinking about guidance and how people find it. I read another blog about how someone was checking out astrology. I asked them what it was that they gained from this, beacuse I'm quite curious what people gain from astrological readings, because I don't believe in it. They basically said they didn't believe in it, it was just fun, and something you can read into whatever you like. This got me thinking.

Why then go to anything if all you're doing is seeing what you want to see? Doesn't that defeat the purpose of going to an outside source for guidance and direction? Just make it that's all your going to do anyway! They compared going to astrological readings like going to the bible for direction. I shared with them my views that the bible is much more than just reading into it what you like. If that's all you do, then I agree that reading the bible can be pointless, you aren't reading what's really there at all. It's just another comfort source in that case. God quite often tells me things in the bible that I don't necessarily want to hear.

Any text without a context is a pretext (as someone wise I know one said). When I read the bible I think it's important to ask "What did it mean to them then?" Then I can take the underlying principle and apply it to my own life. And that's not always what I want to hear, but it is what I need to hear. If no one got guidance from an outside source then I think we'd all be screwed. Wait! That's why the world is screwed!!! 6 billion people just doing what they feel is right (if we're lucky. It's usually what they WANT to do). No wonder we have wars and conflict over difference of opinion. Everyone does what is best for them, which is not best for everyone.

I love the bible. I think we need a steady source of guidance rather than doing what feels good. Who else could provide that other than an all powerful God who loves each one of us as his own percious child?