Just What's A Canker Sore
9 years ago
Monday, July 09, 2007
I hate working. I can't function in the mornings which means I'm a moron when I arrive at work, and I'm super grumpy for the first 2 hours of every day. My brain literally can't function properly and I actually hate everyone when I wake up. I'm not cut out for normal working hours. I'm such a night owl. And I don't think it's just that I haven't adjusted yet. It's been 6 and a half weeks and I still can't cope properly. Why do we work 9 - 5? Or 9 - 5:30 in my case.
I've come to the conclusion that I find no meaning in my work. I know this is a common story, but while I'm at uni I just need any job that gets me through. While my workmates are nice, I don't enjoy my job. It's repetitive and boring. I find no satisfaction and purpose in my job, therefore I have no motivation to be there.
It sounds cliche I know, but I'm struggling with my new lifestyle. Working 30 hours a week is really hard on top of study and all of the other commitments I have. It's not the kind of life I envisioned for myself. I'm grieving the loss of a lifestlye I have enjoyed and want to continue. I miss all the live music I used to go to (I've had to severely cut down on all that). I miss hanging out with people as often as I used to. I value people over a job, and now I can't put the time into them I want to. I'm finding this change hard to accept.
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As you say, your current job is a means to an end. That's how I thought of all of my previous jobs. I didn't enjoy them much, but they were good in terms of character building.
You may have to make some short term sacrifices in terms of lifestyle adjustments, but in the longer term, you'll be able to look back and be thankful that you stuck it out.
i don't have anything really profound to say in term of advice. but glad you blogged!
when i have a job i find it great just to get away from home and meet and be with people.
Your loss of lifestyle can help others to gain. How many children are you going to sponsor to help Make Poverty History like you promote on your blog now you work so hard and have so much money? I think a real positive can come out of this Megan.
I've never had a job before. I'm 24.
Blinky, I have no idea why you decided to take that angle. I did not compain about having a job. I am grateful for it. This blog is my blog. I am simply stating what's on my mind. It is not meant to be some sort of open forum for people to judge me. So please don't. I can't see how that is helpful for anyone. This is just how life is for me. I should feel free to express that. Your experience is valid, as is mine.
It seems as though you're always looking for approval, sympathy or any kind of attention from your posts. It also seems that you are full of hot air. All these causes that you 'gain awareness' for, what do you actually do?