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Last night I went with a few people to see an acappella group called 'The Idea Of North'. I've seen them a couple of times before and I always forget how amazing they are. These guys are some of the best singers I've ever heard! I can't get over how incredible they sound as a 4 piece, and as individuals. Their music is moving and beautiful. If you ever get a chance to see them I recommend you don't pass it up! It was their live DVD launch last night and I got one, it's stunning. But nothing beats seeing them live.

*NOTICE*
Spoilers for 'Lost' ahead!

Have you ever been too invovled in a tv show? If I watch a show too much then I tend to incorporate it into my life. Like when I was 12 hours behind in '24' last year and I watched heaps and heaps of it in a short period of time. I started to get a little paranoid and was on edge a lot. Think I did that with season 1 of Alias too in 2004. Anyway, my latest one is 'Lost'. I haven't even watched heaps of it, just the season finale. It was the finale of season 3 last night and I watched it today. I think I'm a little too invovled because my heart is breaking for Jack. And Charlie dying was just so awful and tragically sad! I'm really upset by the show, like it's real.

Tell me I'm not the only one who does this! What show/movie have you done this with?

Well I didn't win the Bloc Party Remix comp, but I did have the highest rating remix on the site for the last 2 weeks, so thank you soooooo much to those of you who rated my remix. I really, really, really appreciate it! I'm taking it down tonight to put up a new version of 'who asks the question'. It's slightly shorter and has reworked vocals. So jump on and rate it HERE!

The Zoophyte launch was incredible! I don't think I've ever heard the boys sound so good! It's obvious they put an awful lot of work into this gig. I was so impressed! I'm loving their new CD! If you get a chance to get along and see them I highly recommend it. And get a copy of their new CD! It's brilliant! You can hear them HERE.

Yiorgo (their bass player) is leaving though, which is really sad news, coz not only is he an unbelievable guitarist, but a really nice guy. And Andy has left the band now, due to work commitments, so the band is dwindling! Although the do have a new bass player, and Andy still plays as a 'special guest' sometimes.
Seriously, get along to see these guys! They're amazing!

I'm off to Zoophyte's album launch tonight with Sabine! Should be heaps of fun! They are talented boys! You can check out their tunes HERE.

I've been thinking a lot this weekend about the nature of relationships and how vulnerable we are to others. I've been doing an intensive (as part of my uni studies) with an organisation called 'Forge'. I'm a big fan of where they're coming from and have really enjoyed engaging with the material over the last 4 days.

Let me preface this with saying that I am talking about any relationship, not just romantic ones.

Something I was thinking about was the nature of relationships and being hurt by others. I can think of a time recently where I have been hurt and disappointed by someone I have been friends with for many years. I was hurt and angry to begin with and thought about ending the friendship out of frustration and hurt. But then I thought about it and realised that this is not an option if I am to live with integrity

Does this mean I was wrong to open myself to this person? No, I don't think so. It is the nature of life that we will be hurt by some people, but if that stopped us choosing to be vulnerable to others, then I think it would be a rather sad existence.

Being in relationship with anyone invovles a certain risk. There is no guarantee of 'success'. Although I would argue that our definition of success is warped anyway. But the more I think about it, the more I tend to think it is ok to be hurt. It means that you have really given something of yourself to another person. Even if you think there is a real risk that you will be hurt, ripped off, disappointed, or taken advantage of. We are only responsible for what we do, not what others do. It is the nature of humanity that we let each other down.

I want to live a life of love. And that means sacrificial, inconvenient, unconditional love. I want to care for anyone and everyone, even if that means I am hurt, inconvenienced and disappointed. I want to be able to look back on my life and know that I did all I could for people, even if it invovled pain. I would rather live a life of challenge than comfort.

Well, I've had some issues raised this week. Is it ok to publically critisice a person's character? I understand that sometimes it is appropriate to criticise a public fiure in terms of their behaviour (and therefore character) if that person is meant to be representing you/your interests (ie politicians). BUT, is it ok to criticise someone who is simply being themselves? Who does not represent you? I have often come under fire for things that I write on this site, and mostly I find if unecessarily offensive. I would never seek to criticise someone for who they are, unless they are supposed to be representing my interests. I may have opinions on them, but I would not publically state it for the world to see.

I wonder what that's about? How does that benefit anyone? Appropriate constructive criticism (in private) is one thing, but general character assassination? What purpose does that serve? I can't see how that helps anyone. It makes the person in question feel attacked and ridiculed, and it can't benefit the readers in any way, apart from entertainment (which I would argue is not healthy entertainment). So I can't understand why people feel the need to publicalyl attack my character. Or anyone's for that matter.

I heard an interview last week about the internet and its potential evils. One of the problems is that people have anonymous identities that allow them to behave without the restraint that they would normally restrict themselves with. Is it not a good thing that we hold back? Why do we feel that being brutally honest is a good thing? Can we not be honest, whilst still taking into consideration the feelings of others? Why does 'being ourselves' mean that we get to hurt others? Why is that their problem? I would argue that it is in fact our problem. I don't want to be responsible for hurting someone else out of my brutal honesty. I'm sure we can find a way that both serves the other person, and is still truthful.

Thoughts?

I hate working. I can't function in the mornings which means I'm a moron when I arrive at work, and I'm super grumpy for the first 2 hours of every day. My brain literally can't function properly and I actually hate everyone when I wake up. I'm not cut out for normal working hours. I'm such a night owl. And I don't think it's just that I haven't adjusted yet. It's been 6 and a half weeks and I still can't cope properly. Why do we work 9 - 5? Or 9 - 5:30 in my case.

I've come to the conclusion that I find no meaning in my work. I know this is a common story, but while I'm at uni I just need any job that gets me through. While my workmates are nice, I don't enjoy my job. It's repetitive and boring. I find no satisfaction and purpose in my job, therefore I have no motivation to be there.

It sounds cliche I know, but I'm struggling with my new lifestyle. Working 30 hours a week is really hard on top of study and all of the other commitments I have. It's not the kind of life I envisioned for myself. I'm grieving the loss of a lifestlye I have enjoyed and want to continue. I miss all the live music I used to go to (I've had to severely cut down on all that). I miss hanging out with people as often as I used to. I value people over a job, and now I can't put the time into them I want to. I'm finding this change hard to accept.

Got me a new CD! I bought 'The Cops' new CD calld 'drop it in their laps'! Great stuff! Anyone else heard it? I highly recommend it as a great alternative pop album!

If anyone's still reading...

I got back today from my weekend down the beach, Sorrento way. We had a great time just hanging out and having some down time. I really enjoyed it! Now I'm back! But I'm about to go away again! But not really. I'm house sitting for the next week in North Balwyn. I'll still be on the net though.

In other news I've got a new song up on Triple J's unearthed. It's a remix of Bloc Party's 'the prayer'. Triple J are running a reminx comp at the moment, so head over there and rate my remixed track! Thanks!